Seeing the Positives

You know how that saying goes? "When it rains it pours"?

 That seems to be quite the pattern in our little life. Things tend to come in spurts for us but I really believe that that's how it is for most people.

This has been a tough week but also very positive in so many ways. When we were driving home from Texas we stopped at John's grandparents house. We had had an exhausting week buying and finding our house so needless to say I was just feeling spent. When we arrived in Trenton, I started feeling super sick and having terrible pain. On Saturday morning when I woke up I realized that I was starting to miscarry (again). Don't be offended if you didn't know I was pregnant. No one knew yet and with my history I am starting to think we probably won't ever make another announcement till we have a healthy baby in our arms and we are being discharged from the hospital. I am starting to feel more like myself today and less like an emotional wreck so I have been able to make a little bit of progress as far as packing up the house goes and re-entering society. We actually have groceries in our house today after being out of town! It only took me 5 days to get to the grocery store. Thank goodness for fast food and a husband that treats me so well. He pretty much kept things running for me while I pity partied my days away with Dr. Phil and Mint Oreo Ice cream all week...lol

Trenton TN - This is the town where my grandparent in law's live and also where my mother in law grew up. I have been there several times to visit but I figured that I wanted a picture in front of the speed limit sign just because it is such a random speed limit. 

Brinley and Maddie. They are the same age and also cousins. This was the first time we met this little cutie and they sure did hit it off. They played so well! Maddie is just a sweetheart and we loved the chance to spend time with her. 

Brinley with her great grandparents! We had such a nice visit with them. They always make us feel so welcome I feel so at home there. Brinley loves them so much and is already asking when we can visit again.  I hope we can soon. 

The gang - me. Someone has to be behind the camera. 

On Monday I went to use my debit card and it said that it was unauthorized and declined (I needed more ice cream lol). I instantly freaked out thinking we had over-drafted but knowing in the back of my mind that there was plenty of money in the account I decided to call the bank. Someone in New York decided to clone my debit card and went on a grand ol' shopping spree to Staples, Nordstrom and filled up their gas tank. It took me most of the day to sort all of that out but thankfully we will be getting all of our money back so it really isn't that big of a deal,  just inconvenient.

On Wednesday after John came home for lunch he was heading back to the hospital and a school bus hit him and ran him off of the road! He honestly got so lucky! He could have been so badly injured and I just get sick to my stomach thinking about the if's and but's. We are so blessed that he was not injured and it was just the car that took the majority of the force. With as many crazy things that happen to us I am so convinced that we must have several guardian angels watching out for us. We are still waiting to hear from the insurance company about what to do with the car and if we will be totally covered. I don't know how all of that crazy stuff works but I am just so thankful we are dealing with material repairs and not human repairs. Stuff is just stuff and can be replaced.

So, that about sums up our week. There are a few graduation festivities we get to attend this weekend and our dear friend Deke is on his way now to stay with us! He has been Mississippi doing his rotations so it will be awesome to have the whole group back together . We are going to the match day party tomorrow and then to a comedy show with everyone afterwards. 

I can't believe that the end of medical school is here. It is so exciting. Despite having had such a rough week, it has given me the opportunity to really reflect on how lucky we are and how unbelievable blessed we are. I know that the Lord loves us very much and has given us all of these opportunities to grown closer to him and to each other. Perspective is so important and can really change the way a situation looks if you just choose to see it differently. 

John was spared from getting hurt and the car is still drive-able despite being hit by A BUS! All of our money is going to be credited back to us and it actually happened at a convenient time because I had just paid all of the bills and John filled up our gas tanks the day before so I really don't even need my debit card for a few days. As heartbreaking as another miscarriage is, at least I am able to get pregnant again. It took us so long to get pregnant before we miscarried last October and I was so scared that we were infertile but at least now we know that I am ovulating again and we ARE capable of conceiving. I have seen the Lord's hand in my life so much lately and it is just so humbling. I know that he loves me and I am so thankful to feel his love on a constant and daily basis.